My pretend world

In my pretend world I married the right man.
In my pretend world he keeps his word.
In my pretend world he still loves me.
In my pretend world he madly adores his children.
In my pretend world he comes home from work everyday and kisses me.
In my pretend world we laugh, talk, and have fun a lot.
In my pretend world he takes the boys on fun guy trips (fishing, etc.)
In my pretend world he takes me on a fun, no kids trip yearly.
In my pretend world he likes to cuddle.

In my pretend world seeing him doesn't cause me so much pain, again.
In my pretend world he doesn't spend his time with his son on his cell phone.
In my pretend world my self worth doesn't plummet at his rejection, again.
In my pretend world it is different.
In my pretend world we are happy.

Don't get me wrong, I am so blessed and actually content in my life; just seeing my ex brings this fantasy back to me. Just another consequence of sin and not following God's will for me life.

Now back to my real world, where although things are not as I expected God is still bigger than all of my sins. He still has good plans for me.

""For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, "Plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."" -Jeremiah 29:11

-Becky