Thursday, January 10, 2008

Nostalgic

Since I can not sleep (sure is weird cause I am so tired all day long) I just googled some old songs I loved. The Heart of the Matter, Tears in Heaven, November Rain(I loved that dress as a kid-hated it tonight-LOL), and Tiffany's Could Have Been. I so wanted to be Tiffany, I remember rocking out to my Tiffany cassette. I liked her more than Debbie Gibson. I love looking back on her now how modestly she dressed and how she did not get a nose job and of course her red hair. She helped me to love my hair (still do.)
I can see myself in my room as a preteen and teen, singing into my white mirror with shelves for all sorts of treasures. I loved my room and my full size canopy bed. I can remember being happy.
Not so much anymore. Life is so stressful, it is hard to take the time to sing a favorite song, although I did take a moment to dance in the kitchen with my little daycare girl today. That made me smile.
Music has such power, to bring us back to times of our youth, a first dance, a first kiss, having an our song, and to uplift us, and to bring us down. Do the lyrics make us cry or the memories? And how can certain artists just touch my soul and feel what I am feeling?
I remember wanting to be a singer (those who know me please hold the laughter) but I think it is because music can make me feel so good.
Certainly my taste in music has evolved. I still like the Beatles and love Chicago's Colour My World, but now I find more praise songs on my playlist (which I actually do not have, I just like the word.) Nothing soothes the soul like singing to the Lord. I especially love Mercy Me's I Can Only Imagine. It is beautiful!!! But I realize I can sing any song to God, and despite my voice, He wants to hear me sing, not just sing, but talk to Him, pray to Him, recite poetry to Him. Everything we do we do because of Him, why not for Him.
Wow, I feel uplifted, He has that power. Now I will try and catch some Zs. I wonder which 80's icon I will dream of tonight.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mijL5CFiqLg

Could have been Tiffany

The flowers you gave me
are just about to die
When I think about
what could have been
makes me want to cry

The sweet words you whispered
didn’t mean a thing -HIS WORDS ARE TRUE
I guess our song is over
as we began to sing

Could have been so beautiful(HE IS)
Could have been so right (HE IS)
Could have been my lover(HE LOVES YOU RIGHT NOW)
every day in my life(EVERY DAY HE LOVES YOU)
Could have been so beautiful
Could have been so right
I never want what could have been
on a cold and lonely night

The memories of our lovin’
still linger in the air
Like the fading scent of your roses
stay with me everywhere

Every time I get my hopes up
they always seem to fall
Still what could have been
is better than what can never be
at all..

Could have been so beautiful
Could have been so right
Could have been my lover (HE CAN)
every day in my life
Could have been so beautiful
Could have been so right
You can hold what could have been
on a cold and lonely night

Could have been so beautiful
Could have been so right
You can hold what could have been
on a cold and lonely night

How can you hold what could have been
on a cold and lonely night...

IT STILL CAN WITH GOD!!!!!!! He is RIGHT!!! -Becky

4 comments:

Courtney said...

How funny. I LOVE to reminisce about old times and music always takes me right back. Sometimes being an adult is rough. Don't you wish we were kids again sometimes?

Becky R said...

absolutely, but I also want my kids to have that happy childhood, it seems way harder for them. I love you Courtney!

The Sorrow said...
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Jeannette said...

We all go through seasons of life, your going through a rough spot, We always think our children have it rougher and harder thats why we try so hard to make it easier for them. Stop being so hard on yourself