stress

I am so stressed. I know I need to give it God. I know! I know! I know! But I am stressing about issues with Jason's dad. I am stressing about Jason's behavior lately. I am stressing about Joshua's behavior lately. Seriously can't I turn one off and deal with the other and vice versa. I am stressing about not having a car again. I am stressing about my upcoming surgery.
But God is like why. I have Jason's therapist coaching me with his dad. I have time to be consistant with my boys. I have an assistant to help when I have surgery and the money to pay her. I may be buying a cheap good car soon. God has already provided, yet I let the thoughts stew in my head until my stomach aches and then I am no good to anyone. I am so glad for my mom, and Monica, and Leigh Ann keeping it real for me today. I almost lost it. Leigh Ann gave me a reminder that if I let others control me I am putting them before God; Monica just listens and gives me spelling tips which make me laugh; and my mom actually came over to referee and take us to Jason's doctor. God had put such awesome people in my life (oh yeah Scott took Joshua to McDonalds to get him dinner.) I have such a great support system. I need to take all my energy stressing and pray and spend more time with God. This is the only way to not waste time. I am glad to blog as it helps me see once again to turn it back to God. Good night! -Becky