Tuesday, November 27, 2007

so tired

I am so tired! I think going to bed at 12:00 and getting up at 6:00am is no good for me. I try to go to bed earlier, but it does not always work out. Although we do not have cable, which translates to almost no reception, I discovered I can watch ABC shows online for free. So I watch them all, even shows I think are inappropriate. I do not watch the bachelor or dancing with the stars or caveman or dirty sexy money, but watch Ugly Betty , Samantha Who? , Pushing Daises , Brothers & Sisters, private Practice, and sometimes even Desperate Housewives (if those ladies only knew how good they really had it-oh wait that's fake isn't it?)
I wish I was spending all that time with God, then I would at least be growing in Him, instead of my knowledge of tv characters. I don't think when I get to heaven that there will be a quiz on tv. I am not sure how I will explain to God that although He wanted to spend time with me, the tv was just more interesting. As a single mom I am supposed to be married to God, how do marriages work when you don't spend anytime together? I know what I need to work on. Why is everything else so more alluring than God who desperately wants to talk with me and loves me no matter what?

Dear Lord,
I pray that I would desire you over all other things and that I would give you the first and last part of my day. I pray for a hunger for your word and time with you. I pray for discipline over tv and food and to remove them as idols from my life.
In Jesus Name, Amen