four weeks already

Four weeks ago I discovered my older brother Eric had passed away. The first week flew by so fast. But as each day, and week passes it seems to become my reality more and more. I am accepting his death. But this feels worse than being in shock. Then I was numb, I didn't feel. But now the pain is so intense. I am so sad and angry and sick. I actually feel physically ill.

This is hard, too hard.

I miss him so.

-Becky