Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I already have everything I need

I was seriously in a state of pity today. I was wishing that I had a husband to take care of me and help me grieve. I was thinking if only I had someone to help me. Well, God almost hit me over the head with the reminder of the great support system I already have. I was sitting outside a friend's as she is having a writing class this summer for the kids. Many other friends of mine were there with their kids as well. I didn't want to go inside because I was so sad and didn't want to have to answer any questions about my feelings or my brother. But after 45 min. sitting in the car I was so overwhelmed with God reminding me that I already have so many to help me through, some of whom were inside the house right now. So I went in and sat and talked and didn't talk, and thankfully no one asked me anything about my brother. At one point a friend just grabbed my hand, that was so helpful. No words, just love. I did share a bit about Eric when I wanted, which was so nice.
So again I am so thankful that I already have the support I need in my family and friends.

I still am sad, but reminded that I am not alone. I know I am loved and can literally feel that in the kind words, gestures, and prayers of others.

-Becky

3 comments:

jersey girl said...

I am praying for all of you Becky. I know I can't do much for you all the way out here in CA, but I can stand in the gap for you when you don't have the strength or motivation to. We all love you

sylvia said...

it's so hard to remember sometimes to just reach out and touch, take the hand that is waiting. real and God's hand. you all are in my prayers every day.
sylvia

Jeannette said...

wait you let someone touch your hand
ugh!

I wish people would stop petting me and touching me